what's my point?

. . hai it's been one month and 29 day's that i met him and love him so much !

but still all that i can do to him was to broke his heart and flow his tears to his face . . but i love him so much . .

now i need to let go and fly to my old world to know what's my point and the reason why i still continues hurting him so much :(

he worth my value but not like what i does . . why? why i can't appreciate him so much but i love him ♥ i don't want to lost him in my life , i can't . .

my conscience knocks my heart and my mind asking me why you alway's do that?
i acted like selfish , like tendency as a boss . . haist
my mind and my heart screaming what should i do? should i continue or to let go?

now i can't decide . . my mind was flying , my heart was screaming and i try to fixed it with my own :(

how long i supposed to feel this way? how long i feel alone cause i deserved it ! how long?

Now every seconds, minutes , hours , days i try that i leave my happy world when i'm with him . . and now i feel i'm so alone , he's my world and my everything . . but i let go of him . . and i don't know what's my point? what is my reason :( that's my problem . .

now i'm sit alone , thinking of him , thinking what's right, what his totally value ,
it's my decision right ? or it's for my selfishness. .

what should i do? :(

now it's our ending , i'm saying good bye to hi but not my heart good bye . . he's still pop out my mind and my heart . .

i continues love him and we hold our promises . .

now i need to good bye to him to realize all things that i can do wrong to him . .

but i'll be back to him to do what i promise and to express my eternal love to him :)

i hope when i came back he's still open his heart to him and he's still love me :)

and i need to avoid him that he not alway's but sometimes crying :))

i love and i miss you so much ♥

ii'l be back :)

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sweet dreams :)

Sweet Dreams

As I lay down to sleep for the night
I pray your beside me come morning light
In my dreams you are always there
You’re the one for whom I care
In the night you’re not my friend
But so much more till time ends
Lovers is what we come to be
For all time just you and me
Then the sun rises in then sky
As I open my eyes I begin to cry
For I realize it was a dream I had
And that really makes me sad
As I travel though my day
For night to come is what I pray
So back to my dream world I may go
And pray that nighttime goes by slow . .

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the first time i saw you in my life :)

The first time I saw you in my life,

the first time I saw you in my life,
I know for then it was True love came along
too me in my life It took me by surprise,
I really did not know what to stay at first, but when you smile at me all the words keep rushing too my mind and stared, to flow just like a sweet love song too me in the night and A looks for for you face caught my eyes it was truly, a basing for the haven too me and
In the time as it passed by,I can not wait no longer
just to tell you I am falling love, with you because The love is getting stronger and stronger with in my heart it burning my soul so deep with my body I can not believe I am falling love with you it Finally,because it took my too a vow
That will bind me and you together in this world,
For the rest, of our lives because you are my first love the joy of my soul and For the laughter, tears, good times and bad I will always love you no matter what and That we've been through good time and bad, time but You still got me and I still got you Thanks for being there always,in my life
I love you, my true love, for the rest of my life. ♥

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forbidden love . .

forbidden love

Why is life so unfair?
I just started to like you,
Just started to stare.

Then I moved far far away,
Where the sun wont shine,
Not even a single day.

I miss you already,
I think you do too.
My heart beat is unsteady

Will I ever see you again?
God, I hope so.
I wonder how you’ve been.

Can I get a number?
This forbidden love is too heavy,
More than lumber.

I hope you still notice me,
For I do you,
More than anyone can see.

We said no good bys.
But why would we?
I heard you sigh.

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lost love :(

Forgiven

I still want you by my side.
Things were rough but you made all of it easy.
All the pain is forgiven as long as your here.
We all make mistakes,
Your my life. Your my soul.
Sometimes you just have to forgive and forget.

I could not do any thing without you.
I would do it all over again.
We all say we love someone.
No one loves you like i do.

I would do any thing for you.
Your my significant other one.
I'm glad we gave each other another chance.
I love the way you say i love you.
Your the best guy i ever met , and that's why you are forgiven.:(

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friendship :)

friendship is not just the name of an

ordinary feeling

but it is the name of the feelings

of understanding, honesty and frankness between two persons

and these feelings keep the two very special persons

bounded together and such a friendship lies in two of us ♥♥♥

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reminisce :) i miss it :)

 . . well this blog is  to reminisce our best moments when we are together :) at kwento rin kung anung lyf nmin ngaun :D


hai kakamiss tlga nung bata kme . . well kaming apat si mirai,nhicai, cindy at ako bata p lang magkakasama n kmi . . khit saan di kmi nag iiwanan :)


naaalala ko p nun classm8 ko c danica nung kinder, hiraman ng mga notes, sabay umuuwi .. nung kinder naalala ko si nicai ang pinaka makulit tumatayo yan sa lamesa nmin haha..peace ^.^ kso sa katamaran ng teacher ko ayun nag drop n ko, grade 1 agad.. wla tuloy ako certificate :))


elem. days nmin masaya wla kming gnwa kundi maglaro :) dhil dun nag aaway kmi . . alm ko si nhicai mai utang smin ni ciny sa paper doll ee haha . . million p ata yun :) pero sa chinese garter wagi kmi lagi ni nhicai haha khit sa jack stone :) , bawat laro nmin may umiiyak , mai mapang asar p :)) yung isa jn pinagalitan p ng nanay ksi sinultan c . . . ng "saksak mo sa baga mo" -dhil jn sa words n yan nsampal sia :) bwal ksi kmi magsbi ng bad words :)) . . khit gang ngaun :D 2wing maglalaro kmi ng bahay bahayan , bwat isa smin may papel .. mai tindera , mai anak , may nanay :) bata p kmi nun tuwing mglalaro kmi ng tinda tindahan may cashier, my water at may guard p haha . . yung mga papel nmin gngwa nming piatos , french fries o burger kunyari aun pagkain nmin :) . . elem. kmi lahat kmi nka service , si cndy lagi ko nkaka away tuwing sasakay n kmi haha kso gusto nia dun sia sa likod , eh ako din gusto ko kya ayun ung isa smin laging masama loob, kaya nag uunahan kmi sumkay haha .. si cndy at mirai laging magkakampi at kmi nmn ni nhicai. tuwing nagkakatmpuhan kmi nag susulatan kmi para magng maaus n :) . . sweet noh? :) at khit anung occation sinusulatan nmin mga mom nmin :) ang effort kmisa mga importanteng tao
       pero ang dbest tuwing bday nmin ksi gumgawa kmi ng kunyaring cake, cheese cake p ata yun taz lalagyan nmin ng honey, choco choco at nips para mai design :) taz punta ng studio super pose haha taz gagala , sama sama kming apat lagi . . kaka miss .. sempre bata p lang kmi mai silbi n kmi :) mai raket ee.. kc lagi kmi pinpasayaw kung saan saan :) khit sang lugar p yan bsta mai bayad :)) with costume p kmi lagi at make up :) at nkiki pag showdown p kmi haha :))muntanga lang haha :)) ang kulit xD, tuwing pasko p nagpapa gandahan p kmi ng damit at nagpapadamihan kmi ng pamasko haha ..
     kso nung high school n kmi mejo bc n tlga sa chool pero tuwing bday nmin gnun prin gngwa kso di n nga lang kmi naglalaro :)) . . knya knya n kming mga secrets nun haha :)) sa mga crushes o lablyf :D bihira n rin kmi sumayaw nun o tumanggap ksi bc nga :) but still sama sama prin gumala :)
    ngayung college life n kmi di n sayaw ang inatupag nmin kundi ang pag kanta nman :) khit bc kmi sa school go lng sa pag knta ! talentada tlga kmi haha . . mga VIP persons p yung nkakasama nmin dhil s pag kanta :) . . pero mas msaya ngaun ksi mas open at super bonding kmi lage .. khit anu pinag uusapan nmin * depende rin pla sa lablyf haha :)) jn kmi madalas maglihim :)) for safety hahahaha . .
      sa FB bidang bida din kmi lalo n pag dating sa mga photos , status at pag nag inrelationship kmi o married haha :)) . . sa dmi din nmin ng photos di nmin alm anu primary nmin :)) khit saan at anu gagawin nmin laging mai pictures kaya ayun sangkatutak :)) pti sa pag palit ng pangaln unique ang gngwa nmin :) pag nagpalit ang isa , palit lahat :)kaya marming ntutuwa , nakukulitan at naiinlab smen ♥ :))
     ngaun smen mai single, mai in relationship at mai MU :)) . . pag dating sa mga kulay iba iba kmi .. mga damit gusto nmin pareparehas kmi, minsan pati pabango at wallet :) di lang pde prehas yung iisa yung ma2halin nmin ksi ngyari n yun smen haha kaya sana wag n maulit :) ksi mhirap ipag palit ang friendship sa boyfriend :D pag kmi ang nang trip kakaiba kelan lang nsa vmall kmi namigay kmi ng pliers haha sa mga cute n lalaki "alm mo crush kita, ingat pa lagi , slmat sa pagbasa :)" hehe di nahiya yung isa smin n mamigay . were not desperate were tripping haha .. kaya lahat gusto mksma kmi,  di ksi kmi bored n ksma :) lahat kmi madaldal at mkukulit, pag pikon ka sorry kn lang .. well kung mai pera k at panlibre smen piem nio lang kmi go kmi haha :)) kso mamumulubi k nga lang kaya dapat pag ipunan tlaga . .
     well enjoy nmin ang buhay nmin khit puno ng problema sa totoo lang pero kaya nmin yun itago :) kaya pag nag eemote kmi sa fb wag kaung mgulo kc yun yung isang way nmin pra maalis kso minsn nkakadagdag p :)) pero well satisfied what we are today , what we have :) and we will treasure it at salamat sa mga taong nagmamahal smen :)
     at sana matupad ang mga pangarap nmin at mtupad sana ang resort n gusto nming patayong apat :) goodluck smen ! at sana sama sama prin kmi .. khit pag papa ksal gusto nmin sabay sabay pro ndi iisa yung papakasalan  nmin haha :)) .. at wish nmin sana maging legal n kmi sa lablyf haha:))   . .
 ilang mga shots n kung saan magkaksama kmi :)
            

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kaming apat na . . .

kaming apat . . oo nga kming apat lang haha :)) kaming apat na magkakaibigan since mga bata p kme kmi n lagi ng magkakasama :D

magkakasama sa galaan , kantahan , sayawan , kabaliwan . . at kami ang walang kahilig hilig mag pictures :))

this is our  information :D unahin ko muna ang pinaka bata smen  . . c elmira :D

si elmira ay aking makulit n kapatid , "mirai ang tawag sa knya :) "

aun kulot haha pero cute :P

15 yrs. old at NBSB :)

si mirai ai nku super kulit :)) ksing kulot ng buhok nia :)) magaling kumanta :) at sumayaw :D mhilig din mag compose :),

moody , may pagka mataray yan, pero mas higit ako haha.lagot k pag wala yan sa mood :)) aun mhilig sa mga sports pero parang pang lalaki lahat haha :)) *billiards, basketball kahit OL games di papaawat , sa counter at dota :) 

ayaw nia sa mga panget at feeling pogi :) kaya kung iaadd mu sia ilagay mo mgaganda mung shot haha :)) at tinitignan niang mbuti kung anu ang info mo :) mahilig yan mkipag chat sa YM at FB sa mga foreigners :) mas trip ang mga yun :D 

maraming mai crush sa knya kso choossy nga ee hahaha :)) hard to get ee :P

gang d2 muna ^.^ para kai mirai :)

ayan nmn si cinderella "cindy" :) cute ng neym ksing cute nia :)

she's 16 yrs. old :) cute , sexy and tall san kp? :))

umm si cindy mabait yan , mai pagkamataray din haha, takot mkipag way iyakin kc *peace hehe :) . . mahilig sa spongebob kaya kung liligawan mu yan aun lang ibigay mo aus n pero di agat OO ang mkukuha mo haha :)) ksi bawal p ?? :))

fashionista din yan si cindy , mahilig sa mga accessories na mkikintab para dw mapansin yung accessories nia :)) JK . . 

si cindy yung taong iyakin hehe . . mahina ang loob sa ibang bagay :) pero sa pagiging kaibigan aus yan , mrunong din yan sumakay sa mga trip :) at si cindy ang sangkatutak n ang album sa FB :)) bsat aus yan c cindy d best :) 

eto si danica :nhica , turning 18 n :) pero matagal n yang dalaga haha , matangkad yun nga lang payatot :P

 . . ang pasaway , makulit at madaldal kong kaibigan haha . .

*ayan ang maraming ex haha :)) well si danica mabait din :)) mai pagka mataray din :P at mhilig gumala :)) . .

aun moody din uso saming apat yun haha .. addicted sa txt *jejemon ee :)) . . tahimik lang yan pag mai skit at bagong gcng :) ingat k pag wla yan sa modd nangangain din yan ng tao :)) pero d best din to :) 

di k nia iiwan  , tapang ee haha JK :P aun sia ang laging inlab sming apat , yun nga lang sia din ung laging nasa2ktan haha .. mahilig man trip , di ka mboboring pag kasama mu yan at reyna yan sa kantahan lalo n pag mai bday :)) peace ^.^

ehem well eto n it's time to shine haha :)) my name is monica marami silang tawag sken lahat di matitino haha ksi yung nicke neym ko un yung nag dedescribe sken like oi nk oink hahaha:))

 i'm 18 , baby face haha , baby height din .. ako ata ng pinaka madaldal smen. makulit , maingay :)) ,moody :p .. mai pagka mataray at brutal dw :)) 

-bawal pikon sken kc di ka uubra sa asaran haha, eaw ko ng tahimik :p gusto party party lagi . . gala ee :)) kahit ganito ko n baliw blaiw marming nagmamahal sken :)) sa fb , sa txt, sa FS, sa ym :)) joke . .

bsta aun never ata kung di dumaldal , nangulit at nantrip :)) well d best nmn akong kaibigan haha .. maaaning ka sa kaharutan ko ... they love me how the way i laugh pang alien dw ee :)) they love me bcoz im crazy haha ..

*oh ayan kaming apat . . nxt blog ay kwento nming apat :)) mahaba msiado . . well dun mu kmi mkikilala kung cnu at gnu kasarap ksama at kakulit :) babush :)

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