what's my point?

. . hai it's been one month and 29 day's that i met him and love him so much !

but still all that i can do to him was to broke his heart and flow his tears to his face . . but i love him so much . .

now i need to let go and fly to my old world to know what's my point and the reason why i still continues hurting him so much :(

he worth my value but not like what i does . . why? why i can't appreciate him so much but i love him ♥ i don't want to lost him in my life , i can't . .

my conscience knocks my heart and my mind asking me why you alway's do that?
i acted like selfish , like tendency as a boss . . haist
my mind and my heart screaming what should i do? should i continue or to let go?

now i can't decide . . my mind was flying , my heart was screaming and i try to fixed it with my own :(

how long i supposed to feel this way? how long i feel alone cause i deserved it ! how long?

Now every seconds, minutes , hours , days i try that i leave my happy world when i'm with him . . and now i feel i'm so alone , he's my world and my everything . . but i let go of him . . and i don't know what's my point? what is my reason :( that's my problem . .

now i'm sit alone , thinking of him , thinking what's right, what his totally value ,
it's my decision right ? or it's for my selfishness. .

what should i do? :(

now it's our ending , i'm saying good bye to hi but not my heart good bye . . he's still pop out my mind and my heart . .

i continues love him and we hold our promises . .

now i need to good bye to him to realize all things that i can do wrong to him . .

but i'll be back to him to do what i promise and to express my eternal love to him :)

i hope when i came back he's still open his heart to him and he's still love me :)

and i need to avoid him that he not alway's but sometimes crying :))

i love and i miss you so much ♥

ii'l be back :)

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